Road Trip!

Two weeks from tomorrow, my husband (who shall be known as mrannomalley) and I are taking a road trip out west to South Dakota, the Black Hills, and the Badlands.  I can’t wait, since it’s been so long since either of us had a real vacation!

Both mrannomalley and I are connoisseurs of kitschy roadside attractions.  I plan on writing about all the kitschy roadside attractions and other kitschy things we see.  (Yay!  A post that I actually write!)

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Waxing Philosophical on My Birthday

Three-hundred and sixty five days from now, I will hit the Big 4-0.  Yes, it’s my birthday today and I’m not ashamed to admit that I am 39 years old.

I’m okay with it.  I really am.  And I’m okay with turning 40 next year, too.  I hope that I have the same excitement next year that I did when I turned 30.  Back when that happened, I purposely went out and bought a coffee mug that shouted “30 Rocks!”  I embraced turning 30 in a big way.

I’m comfortable with all of this because I’d rather be the age I am now than be 18 again.  Youth is horribly overrated.  The only way I would even consider being 18 again is if I could keep all of the knowledge I have gained over the years.

One thing I have come to realize about age and getting older is that you can’t stop the inevitable.  No Botox, no plastic surgery, no hair plugs, no Viagra, no dressing like a 20 year old is going to stop the calendar.   The only thing about this that I can control is what I do with the time I am given.

When I turned 35, I ended up doing a lot of soul searching.  I had one of those “I’m 35 and what have I done with my life” moments.  I came to the realization that when I turned 40, I did not want to have another “what have I done with my life” moment and that I have the power to do something with my life.  Which is what led me to go back to school to get an associate degree.

School is for my job, so I can get a degree and move up.  I have the skills and I have the intelligence, but I lack the degree to move up in the company.  But school is also for myself because I’ve always talked about going back.  Talk is just words.  Talking about doing something isn’t going to get it done.  Action is what gets it done. Taking the bull by the horns and doing something to change your situation is the only way to make the most of the time you are given on this Earth.   For years, I would talk about going back, but I couldn’t afford it.  But when I realized that I could save up the amount of money to pay for one class and that one classes material from a few paychecks (after bills are paid), it made my “I can’t afford it” excuse null and void.   I decided that yes, I was going to do it, even if it meant I took one class at a time and it took me longer than five years to do it.

I’m not scared of the school work required of me to do this.  But there is that leap into the unknown that is scary.

Someday, when this is done, or perhaps right after this is done, I would like to do something else “for me”.  I would like to transfer my credits over to get a Bachelor’s degree in business.  It’s not so much for work as it is more personal.

I could have gone to college right out of high school, but didn’t.  In many ways, I’m glad I didn’t go then because at that point in my life, I could not have appreciated it.   Knowing the person I was then, I probably would not have finished school.   Back then, I didn’t think I deserved to go to college, or that I was worthy of going to college, even though I was certainly smart enough to get in and I could have worked my tail off to pay for it myself if that’s what it took to get through.

It took me years to work out all the issues I had when I was younger, particularly regarding my self-esteem.   I wasted a lot of my life and squandered opportunities because I didn’t think I was worthy of it.  I don’t believe that now I deserve to go to college.  Deserve implies some sort of entitlement, and I am not entitled to a Bachelor’s Degree.  However, I want to go to college.   I want to get my bachelor’s degree.   I will do what I have to in order to get through school and realize my goals.

Part of “growing up” is realizing that you and only you can determine the path your life takes.  Outside forces may try to derail your plans, but in the end, you are the one in control of things.  You may be born into a set of circumstances, but they are by no means permanent.  You can work your way out of those circumstances.  It may not be easy and it may not be the obvious path, but you can work your way out of them.   When you want things in life, you have to earn them.   You have to start out with nothing and work for what you have.  A lot of young people now seriously need to learn this lesson.  They need to suck it up, buckle down, and get to work.  Nothing good is gained when it is merely handed to you.

I did not have the greatest of childhoods.  I grew up with emotionally distant parents who neglected to give me the basic necessities in life (like regular doctor and dentist check-ups, not the latest fashions or a Walkman), while somehow always finding the money to do things that they wanted to do.   They did not show me affection, nor did they give me moral support, which is free and shouldn’t cost a thing.   It should be no surprise that I ended up with issues.

However, I have what I have in spite of them.   I had to be willing to face up to things that were not pretty or nice about myself and I had to be willing to change in order to do this.  I had to be willing to take responsibility for my own life to get where I am now.   Had I not done this…I’m not even sure I want to think about what kind of person I would be.

Johnny Depp in Oshkosh


Johnny Depp in Oshkosh, WI 4-16-2008

Originally uploaded by Ms. Ann O’Malley

Long time, no write.

Well, about two weeks ago, Johnny Depp was down in Oshkosh filming a movie and everyone was all excited about it. Including me. 🙂 On April 16th, I saw him in person, and now I can die a happy woman.

We went on Wednesday, because on Tuesday morning, I saw on the news that he came out and shook hands with people after filming was done for the day. All day Tuesday, I was kicking myself hard because Hubby and I were talking about going down to watch on Monday night and then we didn’t. So Wednesday, we went and we figured that even if Johnny Depp didn’t come out and shake hands with people, seeing him from a distance would be good enough for me. I wasn’t close enough to actually shake his hand, but I got to see him and that was cool.

My Hubby and I went down to Oshkosh after work that day and we got to watch some of the filming, at a distance, of course. First, we were on the corner of Main and Merritt, and we couldn’t see anything. People were kept back because the movie cameras were pointed in that direction, and cars were not allowed to cross, nor were pedestrians allowed to cross the street until the cameras stopped rolling. At one point, we were down on the corner of Main and Otter, looking up the street at what was going on. Hubby had the binoculars and I had the camera. They were filming a bank robbery scene and you could see people moving around. Then you heard the tommy guns going off.

The Sunday before, we were among all the gawkers who went to downtown Oshkosh to walk around and see what the movie crew did with the downtown. I live in Neenah, but I go to Oshkosh enough that I know what the downtown normally looks like, so seeing what was done with those buildings was pretty cool. My husband is a movie geek, so he was all sorts of happy looking at the “set” and the props and watching the crews work. On that Sunday, they were out transforming the Masonic Temple into a bank and setting up some scaffolding for a green screen.

Seeing all of this really makes me want to go see this movie when it comes out. It’s going to be a trip to see Oshkosh on the big screen. It was also nice, for once, to have something exciting happen here that didn’t involve the Green Bay Packers. Don’t get me wrong, I love the Packers, but it’s nice to have something so exciting happen that didn’t involve them.

I do have to mention that I also have made my sister insanely jealous of me. I threw all my Wednesday pictures on a thumb drive, took it to get my pictures printed, and then I took the drive to work and the picture you see here is now my desktop at work. I also e-mailed it to some people, including my sister. She is now insanely jealous of me. But we’re even because she took her kids to watch Packer’s traning camp a couple of years ago and my nephew got Brett Favre’s autograph. They have this thing at the end of practice where they pick some players to sign autographs and by sheer dumb luck that day, Brett Favre was one of the players, and I am insanely jealous of those guys because I am a big Brett Favre fan.

I’ve heard nothing but now nice everyone associated with that movie was, and now, if other studios decide to come to the area to film, they’re going to be measured to the standard that this group has set, which is pretty darn high. It’s been two weeks, and I still can’t get over that even though he was probably tired from working all day, Johnny Depp still came out to shake hands with people on more than one occasion. My respect for him has just grown that much more. I’ve always had a ton of respect for him and what he’s done, but this just made it grow by leaps and bounds. 🙂

The Road to the Super Bowl Goes Through Lambeau Field, Baby!

Did you see the end of the Giants/Cowboys game???  Pretty awesome, except if you’re a Cowboy’s fan.

I literally did the happy dance in front of my astonished hubby, who is probably one of the few people I know that hates football.  In my joy, I kept going, “They’re playing at Lambeau next Sunday and they’re one game away from the Super Bowl!!”, to which he gave me the “Yeah, so?” look.

That is, until it dawned on him that this was something that was very, very important to me.  It hit him because I am a pretty stoic person that doesn’t show a lot of outward excitement, and when he saw me on the verge of weeping actual tears of joy and jumping around like a fool, he realized exactly how important this was to me.

But ’nuff about me.   GO PACKERS!!!!